The Johnson Family

Be still, my soul; the Lord is on thy side;
Bear patiently the cross of grief or pain;
Leave to thy God to order and provide;
In every change He faithful will remain.
Be still, my soul; thy best, thy heavenly, Friend
Through thorny ways leads to a joyful end.

Be still, my soul; thy God doth undertake
To guide the future as He has the past.
Thy hope, thy confidence, let nothing shake;
All now mysterious shall be bright at last.
Be still, my soul; the waves and winds still know
His voice who ruled them while He dwelt below.

Be still, my soul; the hour is hastening on
When we shall be forever with the Lord,
When disappointment, grief, and fear are gone,
Sorrow forgot, love's purest joys restored.
Be still, my soul; when change and tears are past,
All safe and blessed we shall meet at last.

    This week has been new and exciting, yet extremely hard and lonely.  Starting PA school is such an adventure I am having a blast knowing that this is what my professional life's work will be. But I'm also scared and allowing all my insecurities to make me vulnerable to the idea that I am not competent enough to do this.  So in sacrament today, I struggled as I thought about how much I missed my husband and how badly I wished I could be in his big loving and comforting arms. Its amazing how a hug from that man can take the world off my shoulders.  I especially missed him on fathers day, as I thought of the amazing father he will be.  I opened my hymn book to my favorite sacrament hymn and as I read the words to this song they took on new meaning to me.  I know that being alone in my current situation makes me extremely emotional and scared (especially because I live on the first floor and illegal mexicans are my biggest fear), but I also know that the loneliness is temporary and that even though I have no friends in Arizona, Heavenly Father will always be there to comfort and love me.  The Lord really does have power over all and He has led me to Arizona and the PA program because he knows I can help serve His children. I need to remember that if the Lord believes in me that I have no reason not to be confident. I miss and love you with all my heart Leo! If you decide that you want to come home I would be behind you all the way ;) but seriously...