Be still, my soul; the Lord is on thy side;
Bear patiently the cross of grief or pain;
Leave to thy God to order and provide;
In every change He faithful will remain.
Be still, my soul; thy best, thy heavenly, Friend
Through thorny ways leads to a joyful end.

Be still, my soul; thy God doth undertake
To guide the future as He has the past.
Thy hope, thy confidence, let nothing shake;
All now mysterious shall be bright at last.
Be still, my soul; the waves and winds still know
His voice who ruled them while He dwelt below.

Be still, my soul; the hour is hastening on
When we shall be forever with the Lord,
When disappointment, grief, and fear are gone,
Sorrow forgot, love's purest joys restored.
Be still, my soul; when change and tears are past,
All safe and blessed we shall meet at last.

    This week has been new and exciting, yet extremely hard and lonely.  Starting PA school is such an adventure I am having a blast knowing that this is what my professional life's work will be. But I'm also scared and allowing all my insecurities to make me vulnerable to the idea that I am not competent enough to do this.  So in sacrament today, I struggled as I thought about how much I missed my husband and how badly I wished I could be in his big loving and comforting arms. Its amazing how a hug from that man can take the world off my shoulders.  I especially missed him on fathers day, as I thought of the amazing father he will be.  I opened my hymn book to my favorite sacrament hymn and as I read the words to this song they took on new meaning to me.  I know that being alone in my current situation makes me extremely emotional and scared (especially because I live on the first floor and illegal mexicans are my biggest fear), but I also know that the loneliness is temporary and that even though I have no friends in Arizona, Heavenly Father will always be there to comfort and love me.  The Lord really does have power over all and He has led me to Arizona and the PA program because he knows I can help serve His children. I need to remember that if the Lord believes in me that I have no reason not to be confident. I miss and love you with all my heart Leo! If you decide that you want to come home I would be behind you all the way ;) but seriously...

Blogging

Why is blogging so hard?!?! I am a college graduate and still cannot figure out how to put pictures onto a blog post...Holli I need your help.  I feel like everyone has a blog and since Leon and I have officially retired from facebook we decided its about time to start a family blog. We hope this helps us to be able to allow our friends and family to keep up on whats going on in our lives. So lets start out with an update...Leon and I are still in Provo ( I know its horrible!) and he is finishing up his bachelors degree.  I am sitting in our little apartment daydreaming about being out on La Jolla Shores with Leon and my family, laying out in the sun, eating some shaved ice, and reading about celebrity gossip.  But I guess since Leon would throw up in his mouth if People or US weekly came to our mailbox and BYU cable thinks that providing us with more foreign channels than english ones (and completely cutting me off from E! and my Kardashian sisters) is funny or something, I have to disgust myself by learning about the repulsive destruction to our country that is being caused by the socialist Obama administration through my friends at Fox news.  I'm also keeping myself informed and appalled by reading Mitt Romney's new book.  I can't help but fantasize about my two political heros running in 2012 together (can you just see it??? Mitt and Glenn you would be my dream republican ticket).  We are getting ready to go apartment shopping this weekend in Mesa!! Yay! I can't wait to eat some of that delicious mexican food that you can only find in Arizona. Leon can't wait to go home too.  Leon is still playing softball in his old man league. It is so fun for me to watch because he gets yelled at every time by his teammates for hitting too many home runs. I catch him stealing a glance at the BYU field every time we drive by...I think he might miss it a little bit.  I can tell he is getting excited about moving to North Carolina and spending time with Elliot and co. He is also really excited about his internship with cisco and making a little money. I can't wait to start PA school and start to learn again.  Hopefully after this weekend I will have figured out to post pictures because I hate reading blogs without pictures, and I will keep everyone updated!
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